How I wasted my life (2015 edition)
Hey there,
So school is seriously just around the corner and I'm really scared to death.
But-
Thinking back of how I spent my recent holidays, well I have to admit, it's really not that bad.
I mean, I didn't actually wasted my time to the fullest like I did last year.
-last year.
Ugh, last year was the worst. I was like this walking mindless creature that has zero goals to accomplish in life and doesn't enjoy the pleasure of sleep. Instead, I replaced one of the events I mostly appreciate in my life now with merely watching tv shows.
You know, if I could casually visit my last-year-self with a time machine, I would certainly take my macbook away from me and tell myself; You need to get a life. But you know what, honestly, I didn't actually regret it that much, the experience was probably legit because dude, as a probably mature 15 year old almost turning 16 adolescent, all I can say is; I was nuts when it comes to tv shows.
Okay, firstly what I really don't have a hard time to remember is the fact that I watched 8 and a half seasons straight of The Big Bang Theory, yeah I know I'm a huge nerd. But more of a Jess Day type of nerd tbh.
Yeah, and my world was as if revolving around the characters, I mean, have you watched Tbbt before? It was funny until what seems like they had probably jumped the shark when Penny cuts her hair. What season was that? Is it the eighth? Okay, whatever it is, the show has pretty much went downhill ever since that imo.
Let me tell you something kids, if you're going to boarding school, do NOT get obsessed to a certain tv show right before school starts because the healing process takes a long, long dreadful time.
You would start doodling the characters on your papers.
You started scribbling their names randomly.
You wished that you could skip classes and take a bus ride home so you could enjoy a night of your favourite tv show at home.
It really was a sad process.
Anyways, those are basically the story of my stupid infatuation towards a completely fictional tv show. Now, let's go deeper to the- how do I say this- darker part of all the shows I've watched.
So, I love we heart it and I've always been noticing of these aesthetics of AHS and I thought it was really cool. They made it look like AHS was this really dark and depressing show about abnormal people that's trying to find a place in the norm of life we're living.
How I wished it was just that.
So, what happened was
I tried to watch an episode of AHS and trust me on this, I almost barfed and felt so terrified to sleep :) To those who takes studying life seriously, this is a vital advice from me :
Do not watch AHS. It's really gory and revolting, it's not a good show and it have a serious case of (very very) PG18+ content and please note that knowledge is light and by watching that show, even for just a couple episodes could dim that light from your soul. I would forever cringe to the thought of AHS. *cringes*
Okay, let's lighten things up,
not that much just a little bit because we're shifting to a slightly less gory but maybe the same amount of darkness and more of sad, lonely, freaking are-you-out-of-your-mind crazy characters.
We're gonna talk about Mr. Robot.
Okay, this one has gotta be the winner, I mean, the cinematography is aesthetically perfect. This show is freaking brilliant, it deserves the high rating it's gotten on Imdb. Mr. Robot is my type of tv show. It makes you think of how dumb the society has become and its just gonna get dumber.
Everyone is this show is an enigma. Everyone is suspiciously threatening. This show makes you feel sorry for yourself, it makes you feel like you're only a small part of this community called society and there are way bigger things happening out there that substantially makes the whole "ignorance is bliss" thing makes extra sense. Apart from that, it also makes you realize no matter how sad you are, you'll never be as sad as this guy
Yeah, I said it. You will never be as severely depressed as Elliot Alderson. Just look at him, he looked like he haven't slept in idk 6-7 months? I feel like giving him a pillow.
If you're looking for a show with picturesque scenes and brilliant lines of how we're not as great as a society as we think, and you wanna get your minds blown.
Then Mr Robot would do you just fine.
But still it does have adultish contents tho. Be careful while watching okay?
Was there more?
Well, yeah, I guess but the details don't actually matter like the time I tried to force myself to like marvel and dc by watching Agent Carter (the show's classy tho but the amount of action bores me a bit) and also The Flash (40 minutes of fighting villains and figuring out your identity, okay well, you see my time's kinda short)
and also watched a couple episodes of Jessica Jones, I would probably watch more episodes if I have a Netflix acc. Hmm.
Okay, I guess, that's the end of it.
I hope y'all don't waste too much time on tv shows.
Think about it guys, your time is practically gold and you're just gonna let some fiction take away those gold from you?
Yeah, it's okay to watch tv shows, I'm not trying to stop you from having fun or anything. I'm just saying that too much of fun could be bad for your soul, especially if you're an actual practising muslim then too much of these tv shows stuff would probably mess up a part of your heart.
We don't want the light to get dimmer don't we?
I guess, this is it, I'm just gonna call it a post (haha) Hope you're having a pretty beneficial and cool holiday! Bye guys!
xx
School Talk (for the young and hopeless)
Hello people of the internet!
I know, lama tak update but hey, I have a cool story.
Soooo,
Maybe some of you don't know this butttttt,
I'm an MRSM student, yeah I know, nothing much just a plain girl tetiba dapat opportunity gi sekolah asrama.
Okay okay rezeki, Alhamdulillah.
But, after 3 years of being chained up to the school system, my mom decided I should go to SBP. She wanted me to go to KISAS.
I mean- HOW WEIRD IS THAT?
Transferring an MRSM student to an SBP school is like Luke Skywalker showing up in an episode of New Girl (I mean, he's gonna be like swashing his lightsaber and all while Jess just sits there terrified) .
It's weird and it doesn't fit that way.
I protested a lot at first but then this friend of mine actually sentap-ed me when it comes to protesting ESPECIALLY to your mom.
So, this friend of mine, her mother wants her somewhere else too, like her mom literally wants her to enter mrsm pkp, you know, the ones with only form 4 and form 5, super bright student only, bla bla bla i dont give two sheets of paper about the school frankly.
point is, her mom feels like she deserves better or something like that,
so mothers, they know best for us right?
and then what happens is,
she just went for it.
I mean, literally went for it.
She didn't protest.
She's all calm and steady.
Maybe, that's what she wanted all along but the point is, she didn't protested like a 6 year old in denial when they said too much candy could give you a stomach ache and ends up puking 2 bags of candy that she ate. (you guys get my message right?)
So, there,
I profoundly realized that I am not that cool as a daughter and I decided,
SBP? why not?
haha if I knew what I know now, I'd probably have 300 reasons for that.
Let me tell you something, rezeki bersepah.
Kena pandai cari, kene usaha. Tu je.
Your school doesn't determine who you are.
Either you're from SMK, MRSM, SBP, Private schools because let's be real,
org yg gi oversea, not all of them came from SBP/MRSM.
Some of them actually dtg dari ceruk2 SMK kampung dalaman,
Some of them came from your standard SMK near your house,
some of them have suck-ish results all the way from form 1-3 and then make it up in upper form and Allah gave them the chance to fly over the freaking seas just to study the course that they want.
and out of those people that went overseas, only a few of them managed to get a really cool job that pays you finely and gets to live in a mansion with 5 different cars aligned at the porch.
That's why I repeat,
Rezeki is everywhere, kene usaha.
Man jadda, wa jadda.
Simple.
And of course la kene rapatkan diri dengan Allah.
Ibarat dia kalau kau usaha tapi x rapat ngan Allah is
Kau dah tanam sayur kat kebun,
kau tanam banyak gila sayur, ada kacang panjang, ada tomato (boleh habes ah tumbuh kat Malaysia) ada potato bagai, tapi kau tak mintak izin pun ngan tuan punya kebun tu nak tanam sayur2 kau.
So ikut tuan kebun tu la either he lets it be and just be cool about it and let it grow or dia nak musnahkan je sayur2 kau or dia nak biar je la tumbuh tapi dia still marah ngan kau tapi still, dia biar je.
You get me?
Okay tbh I'm kinda sad because I tried to fill the forms but suprise suprise, x lepas syarat. Okay fine, x kesah pun. Like srsly Alhamdulillah x lepas syarat. Idk why maybe it's because the different system like how SBP is with the PBS system while MRSM is in uhhh.. it's own system I guess?
Or maybe I'm just not that qualified enough to be a member of the sbp community well guess what,
I. Don't. Care
Plus, result pt3 x keluar lagi so why the rush?
So yeah.
To students sekolah asrama,
Yeah, people might have high expectations on us. People might find us auspiciously brilliant because for some reason, we managed to enter some school that some students struggled for, some of us actually DREAMT for and fought for it but didn't have the rezeki to enter such school. People might distinguish us from others just becuase we came from "SBP" or even "MRSM". Therefore, be grateful and prove to Allah you're there for a reason. Be great in school! Okay, I'm not much myself as a student, I mean, my grades are not that bad and tbh I suck at sports and I kinda dabbled them at school and my co-curriculum doesn't say a lot about me (I'll tell you later about how I failed my debate audition big time) But get this, you're in a great school that's built for amazing, talented students. Now, I've seen a lot of my friends going all,
"dude, aku useless ah"
"weh, aku nk masuk this contest tapi org tu dah masuk, tak dek chance la"
okay, those statements up there, that kind of attitude is bringing you nowhere. Negative mindsets are a typical cause for a setback in someone's life. There are times when it's forgivable to be negative but don't let that kind of thought haunt you for the rest of the semester. You're gonna kill your self-esteem if you do that. You're seriously going to let your subconscious believe that you're literally useless when there's a lot you can do in the school? Plus, as far as I know, we're still talking about you in the school and not you in the world so your chances to rise and become somebody has risen from 37% to 55% if you've alter yourself to become a more positive individual and the numbers go up to 72% if you started working for your dreams and increases to 82% if you actually tried and fervently praying and trust Allah that he will grant your wishes to become the 'someone' that you want. However, if your dream doesn't turn out the way you wanted to, do not give up
I repeat.
Do. Not. Give. Up
My teacher told me I'm probably not suited enough to become a debater.
But does that stop me?
NO! Na-ah, I ain't giving up and so are you- you are bigger and better than what people sees from you.
You are someone.
Believe in your freaking self.
Because if you dont, who else will?
Life is (aside from the part that life is about our amalan and piling it so we can enter jannah) basically about dreams and achieving them while we still have the time to. As we get more older, there are more things we want to achieve, more things we want to accomplish nothing but more and more and more.
But how far had we go?
I'm telling this to you and myself, we're all worthy of something.
In other words, when you want something, believe that you can, imagine that you can, be positive, watch you attitude. After that, change your game. Put efforts, work hard. Pray and keep on praying.
Because even if you have become someone, how worthy it is if it doesn't involve hardships and constant prayings.
And also, whenever you've achieved something even if it's an itsy bitsy small part of your achievement, be grateful. As Allah has said in the Quran, Be grateful and I'll give you more.
And when Allah says that, trust me he's not kidding about more.
Tick Tick Tick
Hey Guys!!
I am back after the long days and weeks of me struggling at my maktab.
Struggling to survive. I should make a series show on discovery channel titled "Surviving 5 Dreadful Years" featuring me tied up to the 5 years of studying at my overbusy school.
Have I told you yet what it feels like to carry the weight of the ayatul quran in your mind and heart, trying as best as you can to hold onto it while you're staying up all night to study for tomorrow's exams in a headlong dash because you don't have the duly time to actually study.
I don't think so
Frankly,
that's why time management is important in our lives no matter if you're a typical hardworking (lol) student like me or an overworked adult chasing time so they can cherish at least little bits of time left with their families, well no matter who you are,
time wouldn't wait for ya
Someone tell me now,
how many of you had pleaded secretly in your heart or had written in your diary of how much you wished that time would just rewind,
How much you wished time would just stop,
How much you wished time could just skip some moments where you don't want it to be,
How much you wish you have this little remote where there are buttons where you can idly turn back time, pause and play forward.
Those wishes have been in your heart before and it felt like you're wishing for flying pigs.
I, myself felt that way too-probably everyone
The truth is, we have the chance to arrange our time but we don't because our lazy ass self doesn't want to follow a schedule. lol
Why am I talking bout time all of a sudden?
Here's the story.
I have a friend at my maktab where she's very determined in anything she does.
One day she woke up with a resolute in time management.
Everyday while we're dawdling to the ds, she would say this sentence everyday until it came to a point where we were sick of listening it and her words goes like,
"Jom jalan laju-laju so we can save our time"
The first time we heard it, we were like
"yeah alright"
and there goes the rest of the week with her "jom jalan laju2" trademark.
The countless time we've mocked her is absolutely uncountable
And when I say we, i do mean we, I mocked her too,
we would 'nganjing' her when she's not around,
it really was a bad thing to do but listening to the same sentence every day, word by word, the way she says it and everything- well that sure is something promising a mockery from friends.
She realized not long after that it was mildly disturbing so she stopped.
"stopped"
nah, she didn't stopped, the correct word is dwindle, yup she dwindled her "jom jalan laju2" sentence but still tho, she has a point.
Do you guys know that, I am actually one of those tardy students who are late in everything. I'm not sure if the teachers notice .I think they do but I surely hope not.
Anyway it's not that we are late in everything but we're just a mere late in nearly everything.
*sweats nervously*
Well at least I'm not that kind of student who's late for every period in class.
Okay I have to admit, maybe a bit but there's a well reason behind all this.
we are always tardy because we're waiting for each other.
Is that acceptable enough hehe
Me and my "jalan laju2" friend have been trying to avoid tardiness but somehow we just-
ntah la
Anyway, we've tried to change and yes alhamdulillah we're getting earlier in everything now hehe
Anyway I hope you got something from this post which is cherish the time you have, don't let it flying around wasted okay?
Thanks a lot for reading darlings and gents!!
Asssalamualaikum
Big Dreams
I am ambitious.
in other words,
im a dreamer.
Im not kidding when I'm saying that because I remember yesterday I told myself I would want to be a fine artist so I pick up my painting tools and drew a drawing.
However, my work didn't turned out that good,
So I went back downstairs sitting in front of the tv,
I pondered and wondered,
maybe I can learn how to sew stuff,
or I can cook,
but neither was capable to take my heart away with passion so I just sat there in front of the tv,
and slept the day off.
The next day,
I was aspired to doodle,
I once doodled before and the results are impressing but I wondered why I stopped doodling,
then I remembered that I had no time to doodle at school,
so I took a bunch of papers and doodled,
when its done,
it's a masterpiece,
it is so impressive
and that's when i thought to myself that I wont stop doodling,
I will do better.
I really have deep passions in art be it painting, oil pasteling or even doodling,
I love art.
And then right now, I feel like I want to be an author,
I want to write books about doodling,
I want to write books about my passion,
I want to write,
I want to inspire people.
Too many dreams to chase,
but I have a dream where I want to chase a dream that will lead me to Allah.
I want to have a passion that can make me remember Allah.
So I figured that if I dreamt to write a book about doodling,
maybe I could write a book where I doodle dakwah.
Insya Allah,
May Allah ease my work to chase my dreams :)
How I wasted my life (2015 edition)
Hey there,
So school is seriously just around the corner and I'm really scared to death.
But-
Thinking back of how I spent my recent holidays, well I have to admit, it's really not that bad.
I mean, I didn't actually wasted my time to the fullest like I did last year.
-last year.
Ugh, last year was the worst. I was like this walking mindless creature that has zero goals to accomplish in life and doesn't enjoy the pleasure of sleep. Instead, I replaced one of the events I mostly appreciate in my life now with merely watching tv shows.
You know, if I could casually visit my last-year-self with a time machine, I would certainly take my macbook away from me and tell myself; You need to get a life. But you know what, honestly, I didn't actually regret it that much, the experience was probably legit because dude, as a probably mature 15 year old almost turning 16 adolescent, all I can say is; I was nuts when it comes to tv shows.
Okay, firstly what I really don't have a hard time to remember is the fact that I watched 8 and a half seasons straight of The Big Bang Theory, yeah I know I'm a huge nerd. But more of a Jess Day type of nerd tbh.
Yeah, and my world was as if revolving around the characters, I mean, have you watched Tbbt before? It was funny until what seems like they had probably jumped the shark when Penny cuts her hair. What season was that? Is it the eighth? Okay, whatever it is, the show has pretty much went downhill ever since that imo.
Let me tell you something kids, if you're going to boarding school, do NOT get obsessed to a certain tv show right before school starts because the healing process takes a long, long dreadful time.
You would start doodling the characters on your papers.
You started scribbling their names randomly.
You wished that you could skip classes and take a bus ride home so you could enjoy a night of your favourite tv show at home.
It really was a sad process.
Anyways, those are basically the story of my stupid infatuation towards a completely fictional tv show. Now, let's go deeper to the- how do I say this- darker part of all the shows I've watched.
So, I love we heart it and I've always been noticing of these aesthetics of AHS and I thought it was really cool. They made it look like AHS was this really dark and depressing show about abnormal people that's trying to find a place in the norm of life we're living.
How I wished it was just that.
So, what happened was
I tried to watch an episode of AHS and trust me on this, I almost barfed and felt so terrified to sleep :) To those who takes studying life seriously, this is a vital advice from me :
Do not watch AHS. It's really gory and revolting, it's not a good show and it have a serious case of (very very) PG18+ content and please note that knowledge is light and by watching that show, even for just a couple episodes could dim that light from your soul. I would forever cringe to the thought of AHS. *cringes*
Okay, let's lighten things up,
not that much just a little bit because we're shifting to a slightly less gory but maybe the same amount of darkness and more of sad, lonely, freaking are-you-out-of-your-mind crazy characters.
We're gonna talk about Mr. Robot.
Okay, this one has gotta be the winner, I mean, the cinematography is aesthetically perfect. This show is freaking brilliant, it deserves the high rating it's gotten on Imdb. Mr. Robot is my type of tv show. It makes you think of how dumb the society has become and its just gonna get dumber.
Everyone is this show is an enigma. Everyone is suspiciously threatening. This show makes you feel sorry for yourself, it makes you feel like you're only a small part of this community called society and there are way bigger things happening out there that substantially makes the whole "ignorance is bliss" thing makes extra sense. Apart from that, it also makes you realize no matter how sad you are, you'll never be as sad as this guy
Yeah, I said it. You will never be as severely depressed as Elliot Alderson. Just look at him, he looked like he haven't slept in idk 6-7 months? I feel like giving him a pillow.
If you're looking for a show with picturesque scenes and brilliant lines of how we're not as great as a society as we think, and you wanna get your minds blown.
Then Mr Robot would do you just fine.
But still it does have adultish contents tho. Be careful while watching okay?
Was there more?
Well, yeah, I guess but the details don't actually matter like the time I tried to force myself to like marvel and dc by watching Agent Carter (the show's classy tho but the amount of action bores me a bit) and also The Flash (40 minutes of fighting villains and figuring out your identity, okay well, you see my time's kinda short)
and also watched a couple episodes of Jessica Jones, I would probably watch more episodes if I have a Netflix acc. Hmm.
Okay, I guess, that's the end of it.
I hope y'all don't waste too much time on tv shows.
Think about it guys, your time is practically gold and you're just gonna let some fiction take away those gold from you?
Yeah, it's okay to watch tv shows, I'm not trying to stop you from having fun or anything. I'm just saying that too much of fun could be bad for your soul, especially if you're an actual practising muslim then too much of these tv shows stuff would probably mess up a part of your heart.
We don't want the light to get dimmer don't we?
I guess, this is it, I'm just gonna call it a post (haha) Hope you're having a pretty beneficial and cool holiday! Bye guys!
xx
School Talk (for the young and hopeless)
Hello people of the internet!
I know, lama tak update but hey, I have a cool story.
Soooo,
Maybe some of you don't know this butttttt,
I'm an MRSM student, yeah I know, nothing much just a plain girl tetiba dapat opportunity gi sekolah asrama.
Okay okay rezeki, Alhamdulillah.
But, after 3 years of being chained up to the school system, my mom decided I should go to SBP. She wanted me to go to KISAS.
I mean- HOW WEIRD IS THAT?
Transferring an MRSM student to an SBP school is like Luke Skywalker showing up in an episode of New Girl (I mean, he's gonna be like swashing his lightsaber and all while Jess just sits there terrified) .
It's weird and it doesn't fit that way.
I protested a lot at first but then this friend of mine actually sentap-ed me when it comes to protesting ESPECIALLY to your mom.
So, this friend of mine, her mother wants her somewhere else too, like her mom literally wants her to enter mrsm pkp, you know, the ones with only form 4 and form 5, super bright student only, bla bla bla i dont give two sheets of paper about the school frankly.
point is, her mom feels like she deserves better or something like that,
so mothers, they know best for us right?
and then what happens is,
she just went for it.
I mean, literally went for it.
She didn't protest.
She's all calm and steady.
Maybe, that's what she wanted all along but the point is, she didn't protested like a 6 year old in denial when they said too much candy could give you a stomach ache and ends up puking 2 bags of candy that she ate. (you guys get my message right?)
So, there,
I profoundly realized that I am not that cool as a daughter and I decided,
SBP? why not?
haha if I knew what I know now, I'd probably have 300 reasons for that.
Let me tell you something, rezeki bersepah.
Kena pandai cari, kene usaha. Tu je.
Your school doesn't determine who you are.
Either you're from SMK, MRSM, SBP, Private schools because let's be real,
org yg gi oversea, not all of them came from SBP/MRSM.
Some of them actually dtg dari ceruk2 SMK kampung dalaman,
Some of them came from your standard SMK near your house,
some of them have suck-ish results all the way from form 1-3 and then make it up in upper form and Allah gave them the chance to fly over the freaking seas just to study the course that they want.
and out of those people that went overseas, only a few of them managed to get a really cool job that pays you finely and gets to live in a mansion with 5 different cars aligned at the porch.
That's why I repeat,
Rezeki is everywhere, kene usaha.
Man jadda, wa jadda.
Simple.
And of course la kene rapatkan diri dengan Allah.
Ibarat dia kalau kau usaha tapi x rapat ngan Allah is
Kau dah tanam sayur kat kebun,
kau tanam banyak gila sayur, ada kacang panjang, ada tomato (boleh habes ah tumbuh kat Malaysia) ada potato bagai, tapi kau tak mintak izin pun ngan tuan punya kebun tu nak tanam sayur2 kau.
So ikut tuan kebun tu la either he lets it be and just be cool about it and let it grow or dia nak musnahkan je sayur2 kau or dia nak biar je la tumbuh tapi dia still marah ngan kau tapi still, dia biar je.
You get me?
Okay tbh I'm kinda sad because I tried to fill the forms but suprise suprise, x lepas syarat. Okay fine, x kesah pun. Like srsly Alhamdulillah x lepas syarat. Idk why maybe it's because the different system like how SBP is with the PBS system while MRSM is in uhhh.. it's own system I guess?
Or maybe I'm just not that qualified enough to be a member of the sbp community well guess what,
I. Don't. Care
Plus, result pt3 x keluar lagi so why the rush?
So yeah.
To students sekolah asrama,
Yeah, people might have high expectations on us. People might find us auspiciously brilliant because for some reason, we managed to enter some school that some students struggled for, some of us actually DREAMT for and fought for it but didn't have the rezeki to enter such school. People might distinguish us from others just becuase we came from "SBP" or even "MRSM". Therefore, be grateful and prove to Allah you're there for a reason. Be great in school! Okay, I'm not much myself as a student, I mean, my grades are not that bad and tbh I suck at sports and I kinda dabbled them at school and my co-curriculum doesn't say a lot about me (I'll tell you later about how I failed my debate audition big time) But get this, you're in a great school that's built for amazing, talented students. Now, I've seen a lot of my friends going all,
"dude, aku useless ah"
"weh, aku nk masuk this contest tapi org tu dah masuk, tak dek chance la"
okay, those statements up there, that kind of attitude is bringing you nowhere. Negative mindsets are a typical cause for a setback in someone's life. There are times when it's forgivable to be negative but don't let that kind of thought haunt you for the rest of the semester. You're gonna kill your self-esteem if you do that. You're seriously going to let your subconscious believe that you're literally useless when there's a lot you can do in the school? Plus, as far as I know, we're still talking about you in the school and not you in the world so your chances to rise and become somebody has risen from 37% to 55% if you've alter yourself to become a more positive individual and the numbers go up to 72% if you started working for your dreams and increases to 82% if you actually tried and fervently praying and trust Allah that he will grant your wishes to become the 'someone' that you want. However, if your dream doesn't turn out the way you wanted to, do not give up
I repeat.
Do. Not. Give. Up
My teacher told me I'm probably not suited enough to become a debater.
But does that stop me?
NO! Na-ah, I ain't giving up and so are you- you are bigger and better than what people sees from you.
You are someone.
Believe in your freaking self.
Because if you dont, who else will?
Life is (aside from the part that life is about our amalan and piling it so we can enter jannah) basically about dreams and achieving them while we still have the time to. As we get more older, there are more things we want to achieve, more things we want to accomplish nothing but more and more and more.
But how far had we go?
I'm telling this to you and myself, we're all worthy of something.
In other words, when you want something, believe that you can, imagine that you can, be positive, watch you attitude. After that, change your game. Put efforts, work hard. Pray and keep on praying.
Because even if you have become someone, how worthy it is if it doesn't involve hardships and constant prayings.
And also, whenever you've achieved something even if it's an itsy bitsy small part of your achievement, be grateful. As Allah has said in the Quran, Be grateful and I'll give you more.
And when Allah says that, trust me he's not kidding about more.
Tick Tick Tick
Hey Guys!!
I am back after the long days and weeks of me struggling at my maktab.
Struggling to survive. I should make a series show on discovery channel titled "Surviving 5 Dreadful Years" featuring me tied up to the 5 years of studying at my overbusy school.
Have I told you yet what it feels like to carry the weight of the ayatul quran in your mind and heart, trying as best as you can to hold onto it while you're staying up all night to study for tomorrow's exams in a headlong dash because you don't have the duly time to actually study.
I don't think so
Frankly,
that's why time management is important in our lives no matter if you're a typical hardworking (lol) student like me or an overworked adult chasing time so they can cherish at least little bits of time left with their families, well no matter who you are,
time wouldn't wait for ya
Someone tell me now,
how many of you had pleaded secretly in your heart or had written in your diary of how much you wished that time would just rewind,
How much you wished time would just stop,
How much you wished time could just skip some moments where you don't want it to be,
How much you wish you have this little remote where there are buttons where you can idly turn back time, pause and play forward.
Those wishes have been in your heart before and it felt like you're wishing for flying pigs.
I, myself felt that way too-probably everyone
The truth is, we have the chance to arrange our time but we don't because our lazy ass self doesn't want to follow a schedule. lol
Why am I talking bout time all of a sudden?
Here's the story.
I have a friend at my maktab where she's very determined in anything she does.
One day she woke up with a resolute in time management.
Everyday while we're dawdling to the ds, she would say this sentence everyday until it came to a point where we were sick of listening it and her words goes like,
"Jom jalan laju-laju so we can save our time"
The first time we heard it, we were like
"yeah alright"
and there goes the rest of the week with her "jom jalan laju2" trademark.
The countless time we've mocked her is absolutely uncountable
And when I say we, i do mean we, I mocked her too,
we would 'nganjing' her when she's not around,
it really was a bad thing to do but listening to the same sentence every day, word by word, the way she says it and everything- well that sure is something promising a mockery from friends.
She realized not long after that it was mildly disturbing so she stopped.
"stopped"
nah, she didn't stopped, the correct word is dwindle, yup she dwindled her "jom jalan laju2" sentence but still tho, she has a point.
Do you guys know that, I am actually one of those tardy students who are late in everything. I'm not sure if the teachers notice .I think they do but I surely hope not.
Anyway it's not that we are late in everything but we're just a mere late in nearly everything.
*sweats nervously*
Well at least I'm not that kind of student who's late for every period in class.
Okay I have to admit, maybe a bit but there's a well reason behind all this.
we are always tardy because we're waiting for each other.
Is that acceptable enough hehe
Me and my "jalan laju2" friend have been trying to avoid tardiness but somehow we just-
ntah la
Anyway, we've tried to change and yes alhamdulillah we're getting earlier in everything now hehe
Anyway I hope you got something from this post which is cherish the time you have, don't let it flying around wasted okay?
Thanks a lot for reading darlings and gents!!
Asssalamualaikum
Big Dreams
I am ambitious.
in other words,
im a dreamer.
Im not kidding when I'm saying that because I remember yesterday I told myself I would want to be a fine artist so I pick up my painting tools and drew a drawing.
However, my work didn't turned out that good,
So I went back downstairs sitting in front of the tv,
I pondered and wondered,
maybe I can learn how to sew stuff,
or I can cook,
but neither was capable to take my heart away with passion so I just sat there in front of the tv,
and slept the day off.
The next day,
I was aspired to doodle,
I once doodled before and the results are impressing but I wondered why I stopped doodling,
then I remembered that I had no time to doodle at school,
so I took a bunch of papers and doodled,
when its done,
it's a masterpiece,
it is so impressive
and that's when i thought to myself that I wont stop doodling,
I will do better.
I really have deep passions in art be it painting, oil pasteling or even doodling,
I love art.
And then right now, I feel like I want to be an author,
I want to write books about doodling,
I want to write books about my passion,
I want to write,
I want to inspire people.
Too many dreams to chase,
but I have a dream where I want to chase a dream that will lead me to Allah.
I want to have a passion that can make me remember Allah.
So I figured that if I dreamt to write a book about doodling,
maybe I could write a book where I doodle dakwah.
Insya Allah,
May Allah ease my work to chase my dreams :)
